What is a degree really?
Is it one that dictates you as a person?
Is your whole identity solely based on your degree?
Is what you are expected to be, later in life, solely based on what you have studied earlier in life?
Would it matter, say, five or ten years from now?
Leaving behind my university days and jumping straight into a job that is entirely not linked to what I have studied in the past five years sometimes leads me into having an identity crisis. I was expected to do something, yet I chose to do — almost the complete opposite, but not quite — what some people might think is only a mere hobby. One that I would not actually pursue professionally.
Yes, I studied Civil Engineering, with a focus on Transportation.
And yes, I am now working as an In-house Photographer while also having a production house and accepting freelance photography works here and there.
For most people, it may indeed seem a bit strange for one to have already had a degree in engineering yet chose to steer off of their paths and quote-unquote, made little to no use to their educations.
When asked, “Would you not regret jumping ships and leaving this engineering path behind?” I would not entirely answer it with a straight-up sentence indicating a yes or no.
Would I regret jumping ships from the engineering world to the creative industry? I don’t think so.
Would I actually leave this engineering path behind me? I don’t think so either.
All I’m saying here is that, I’m not closing myself to options.
It certainly doesn’t take a rocket scientist to know how much I enjoy and love what I’m currently doing.
Waking up everyday all excited to see what more could I explore, which ideas of mine could I actually realise throughout the day, and which of the things I could learn and improve further.
Ending some days past my working hour, wrapping up the day’s shoot, finishing up some photo retouches, feeling a tad bit tired yet I have not find myself complain.
Photography is actually something that started off as a hobby and something to fill up my free time; never have I ever went through professional photography classes or what nots.
And it turned into what I actually do for a living now. But well, how many people throughout this globe could actually say that?
Looking at most parts of it though, I realise I may not satisfy the common lot, especially the ones who actually have it in their minds that I would continue my way down the engineering lane.
Blood, sweat, and tears (and money) have been spent during those five years and I know I may have disappointed a few and even shocked many, but hey, if life doesn’t give you some sort of action here and there, where would the fun be in that?
But to be perfectly frank, I have always been intrigued on urban developments and city reimagining in areas throughout the world. Developing concepts and plans for rural, urban, and suburban areas would lead to the increase of the total economic value of an area, resulting in a furthermore developments and worth of the city itself.
Thus the reason on why I ended up taking Civil Engineering.
A small part of me still have this desire to pursue Urban Planning & Development as my further studies — in the hopes of not completely throwing away my degree down the drain and basically still taking some percentage of it into usage.
And to those who are wondering, I might still be a rookie in all these but I am learning everyday and constantly getting better.
Most importantly, yes I am happy. Yes I am content.
And yes, I may not know anything about the future for it would always be a blur no matter how sure anyone is of it, I may not know what I would be doing in my life six years from now, or heck, six months from now, but as far as I’m concerned, I really do love and enjoy the thing that I’m doing currently.
And for me, that is enough.
I’m focusing on the what it is right now.
And perhaps, there’s some sort of way that could merge these two. Perhaps, I could be the one who ends up merging the two. Living what I could be, while still being me.
What I would be, should always be me.